Sunday, November 11, 2018

embellished lies


They had not seen her since high school, but one day she just showed up.  Sherrie claimed that she had been spending time with another friend from grade school.  Sherrie said things like “why would I lie”, and “I have no reason to lie to you”… and then Sherrie told them things she claimed to have discussed with the grade school friend. Things about everyone they all knew.  Things she claimed the other person said about everyone.  Sherrie embellished every truth with a series of lies designed to drive a permanent wedge between people.  And she punctuated her lies with “what reason would I have to lie to you?”

The thing was that Sherrie was angry. And bitter.  Sherrie was a bleeding heart liberal, who wore pussy hats and marched in useless protests.  Sherrie had hurt feelings because the person she lied about said that, rather than wear a pussy hat, and march in a useless parade, people should take action in their own communities to effect change.  Sherrie thought that was very hurtful and also wrong. 

Now, months later, the pussy hat parades have proven to have been about the most useless thing anyone could have done.  And the person Sherrie lied about came away with a lesson,…a revelation of sorts…. That the people she had known for more than half a lifetime,…people she had attended school with, hung out with, driven around in her car for hours on end…those people were never her friends.  After high school they all vanished completely, and they never reached out to her. 
She has asked that “Sherrie” be thanked. 

Sherrie learned very little, got all bent out of shape, and lied about someone with a good heart.
The person who was lied about? She learned things about others, and herself.   She learned that she should never trust anyone.  She learned that she had been all alone her entire life.  She learned that supposed friends will believe lies from someone they have not seen or spoken to in decades.   She closed herself off, a little more, from the world. Protecting her psyche from liars and betrayers and people she never really knew at all.


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Friday, November 2, 2018

be careful how you wish for......


This one is kind of complicated to explain…. Let me just say that I have always found the classic Jaguar to be an ugly car.  That was almost a mantra of mine… and it definitely got a lot of play any time I heard the word Jaguar in reference to the car.  “Jaguar, the ugly car.” 
Do you know the Pink Floyd song “Welcome to the Machine”? well it fits the music….., sometimes I sing it..... "He loved to drive his Jaguar. ..It's such an ugly car."

For reasons too complicated to get into I recently started to think about the Jaguar differently. 
(aside: I spend most of my time alone… so I talk to myself…. )  
so,...  I was sitting in my office muttering to myself about Jaguar, and changing “ugly car” to “pretty car”,… and it did become a kind of mantra: “show me a Jaguar -the pretty car”… and I repeated it. 
A lot.  Over the course of a couple of weeks…..

And then…..
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One day….
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I came out of work….

And walked across the crowded parking lot…..

And my car came into view….

And next to it…


the jeep liberty is my car,....


Considering the state of this life I lead… this seems to be some kind of grand cosmic joke from the universe to me….. and it just isn’t funny.
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But it is ironic…. So….universe,….about that  $ ONE $ MILLION $ DOLLARS $$$$$$$$


Thus my new mantra: ……. #onemilliondollarstaxfree


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Welcome to the Machine
Pink Floyd
Welcome my son, welcome to the machine
Where have you been?
It's alright we know where you've been
You've been in the pipeline, filling in time
Provided with toys and 'scouting for boys'
You brought a guitar to punish your ma
And you didn't like school, and you
Know you're nobody's fool
So welcome to the machine
Welcome my son, welcome to the machine
What did you dream?
It's alright we told you what to dream
You dreamed of a big star
He played a mean guitar
He always ate in the Steak Bar
He loved to drive in his Jaguar
So welcome to the machine
Songwriters: Roger Waters


actually, I rather like the Jaguar XK......


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